As I post this, (18th June 2019) it’s exactly a year since my book, Finding Joy Beyond Childlessness was published. I planned to write a positive & inspiring post about how I’ve changed in the last year but the Universe had other plans. Or to be more specific grief intervened & sucked most of the life & enthusiasm out of me leaving me struggling to write, especially to write anything joyful. This Friday, exactly a year after my book launch party, I’ll be at a ‘celebration of life’ for a friend’s husband & at the same time Roger will be 150 miles away at the funeral of another friend. So not exactly the week I was hoping for. To research the anticipated blog I spent time reading through the journals I’ve written over the last couple of years. It was really interesting & I’ll be writing about my discoveries in due course. One thing which stood out in my writing is how much I’m aware of how differently I feel each day. Accepting all of life as it happens Perhaps what’s changed most over the last year is that I now accept every bit of life as it happens. All of it. I’ve learned to accept how I feel in each moment, to allow each emotion in with an open heart, knowing it will leave when it’s worked its’ own special magic. That was a huge realisation but it felt like there was something missing. I took time out to … Read moreReflecting on a year of Finding Joy
You know sometimes you get an email that brings everything to a stop for a few moments? That happened to me last week, I had an email from the Emma … Read moreThe 5 things I’ve learned coming to terms with childlessness
‘I feel incredibly sad, a sadness deep inside. It’s almost overwhelming, a heaviness inside my chest that I carry all the time, if only I could cry.’ ‘I’m sad and … Read moreWhat’s the link between a water bottle, a dragon, a swing chair and a stone?
It’s been almost a month since my last blog when I encouraged you not to start new things and set resolutions but, instead to follow nature, be still and direct … Read moreThe challenges of following my own advice