It’s been almost a month since my last blog when I encouraged you not to start new things and set resolutions but, instead to follow nature, be still and direct energy deep within to recharge. And to ask yourself the question – what does my heart want? So how are you getting on? I normally blog more regularly than once a month, and I wish I could say I’ve been too busy to write. In the spirit of complete honesty taking my own advice has been a huge challenge for me. I’ve been great at setting aside time to meditate, for my yoga classes and lessons and also for reading. And everything else has been a real struggle. I even found it hard to journal and that usually comes naturally. As for writing blogs; well I’ve started a number and honestly, writing was like pulling teeth. Maybe this is how it is when you sit still; I guess I’m not used to everything feeling like pushing a rock up a hill. My month hasn’t been all gloom, I’ve had some intense moments of joy, spent time with beautiful friends and I’ve also unexpectedly been knocked around by a couple of waves of emotion. There was a time when I would have pushed these waves back as quickly as they surfaced, numbing the feelings with chocolate or wine. But not these days. Because of the work I’ve done I now allow everything in knowing that it will leave when it’s taught … Read moreThe challenges of following my own advice
Four things I learned when I showed my true colours.
You know when you commit to something, it all seems exciting and then there comes a moment when you wonder what on earth you’ve just done? This happened to me … Read moreFour things I learned when I showed my true colours.
There’s More To Life Than Having Children
What happens when you read the headline? Does your body recoil because you can’t possibly believe they could ever apply to you, or do you believe that one day they … Read moreThere’s More To Life Than Having Children
What keeps you on course
It’s all getting a bit hectic in the Pyne household as my dream of holding my book in my hand comes close to being a reality. One moment I find … Read moreWhat keeps you on course
The secret to finding peace
“Here it comes again, my daily weep. I don’t want to cry again. My chest feels so heavy with that all pervading sadness. I’ve worked SO hard over the last … Read moreThe secret to finding peace
Being infertile feels like crap.
Being infertile feels like crap. I wish I could say it more eloquently, but I really can’t. I felt like a total loser. Now I would never feel that way about … Read moreBeing infertile feels like crap.
Courage or comfort, what’s your choice?
I don’t know about you, but my year has already been a bit of a rollercoaster. In my last blog I wrote how I planned to slow down in January, … Read moreCourage or comfort, what’s your choice?
Why not to start new things in January and what do to instead
If you’re excited by all the enthusiastic emails flooding into your inbox telling you that, now it’s January you MUST set goals or intentions; give up this or start that, … Read moreWhy not to start new things in January and what do to instead
Christmas Survival Guide
It’s that time of year again and you can probably feel the tension and stress building. Maybe the idea of hiding somewhere until January sounds attractive but unfortunately that’s not … Read moreChristmas Survival Guide
Finding joy from grief
When was the last time you felt complete, unadulterated joy? Not sure? Let me guess, you’ve also been running away from grief. As Tracey Cleantis said when I interviewed her … Read moreFinding joy from grief
Feeling misunderstood (guest post by Tessa Broad)
I think one of the hardest things about being childless in a pronatalist society is feeling misunderstood and at times, feeling less than. I’m not sure I realized it at … Read moreFeeling misunderstood (guest post by Tessa Broad)
Feeling my way through grief
You’re walking down the High Street when completely out of the blue something catches your eye and immediately you feel the grip of grief tightening. It’s like a volcano in … Read moreFeeling my way through grief
The power of finding support
This post is my contribution to WorldChildlessWeek, here are my thoughts on finding support. Let me guess, you’re struggling to come to terms with not being a mother. You’ve found … Read moreThe power of finding support
What’s made you who you are today?
Here’s a question for you. What events in your life have made you who you are today? And whilst you’re thinking, here’s some help; Take blank sheet of paper; draw … Read moreWhat’s made you who you are today?
From sprained ankle to heart in three steps
I hear and feel the crack in my ankle as I crash to the ground. ‘Are you Okay?’ Roger asks. ‘NO’ I get up slowly up and hobble gingerly to … Read moreFrom sprained ankle to heart in three steps
Reflections on Grief and Feeling by Sarah Chamberlin @Infertility Honesty
My first brush with the pain of loss I’ll never forget my first real brush with the pain of loss. It was after our fourth IUI failed when my tectonic … Read moreReflections on Grief and Feeling by Sarah Chamberlin @Infertility Honesty
